Friday, February 28, 2014

What I Did For Love

When I was younger, I did not always take care of myself as much as I should have.  There were missed dental appointments simply because I disliked going and there were years where I skipped a physical all together.  Denial, I suppose.  What I did not know could not hurt me!

Luckily, I have been pretty healthy most of my life.  And luckily I grew up along the way and made the appointments I needed to make sure I stayed that way.

This week I had my annual OB/GYN appointment.  Gary surprised me in the parking lot and walked in with me and we held our heads high.  We were delighted to share that we were parenting and showed off pictures of our rainbow to everyone from the receptionist to the nurse to the doctor.  It was a routine visit and I was in and out before I knew it.  

I left with a script for a mammogram.  Kind of a parting gift for turning 40, I suppose.  I called to make an appointment thinking there would be a wait but sure enough, they had room for me today.  So my mom came and took Miranda for a few hours and off I went.

I heard it was bad.  I heard the horror stories.  I knew it was not gonna be a walk in the park.  But OH MY GOD.  Mammograms = torture!!!!!!! My poor body!  I am still wincing from the discomfort of it all.

It was over in probably less than 15 minutes.  I treated myself to a pedicure afterwards.  (I highly recommend this to anyone post-mammogram).

When you love someone and are loved by someone, it seems only reasonable that you do what you can to make sure you are around for as long as you can be.  I want to be here for my family and want to be able to do all the things we can.  So if that means a little discomfort along the way, so be it.

I do not want to look back and have regrets over the things I can control.  There is simply too much that I can't control.

"Point me toward tomorrow
We did what we had to do
Won't forget, can't regret
What I did for love what I did for love"
-A Chorus Line 

Miranda turned 11 months today.  Or as close to 11 months as she can be since there are not 31 days this month.  Her party planning is in full swing.  I wish we had a mansion so I could invite everyone we know and everyone who loves us, but we are keeping it pretty small and simple.  

Shortly after her birthday, we will have a smaller and even more simple party for Allie.  She would have been 3 in April.  To honor her, we will have some balloons.  And some cake.  And we will share some stories about her with her sister.

Spring is coming and with it, the celebration of both my girls.  I am going to do everything in my power to make sure I am here and healthy enough to enjoy it all.  That's what I did for love.  And it's what I will keep on doing.
Discovered her step stool and the mirror at the same time
Gymboree class

1 comment:

  1. I feel the same way about taking care of myself these days. It's as much for everyone else as it is for me. Glad that you treated yourself post mamm! Good luck planning Miranda's and Allie's parties. I know about both kinds of birthday celebrations. I know they are both filled with love.


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